3 DECEMBER-Happy Birthday To Me

                                                    

                                                    

Happy boofday to me...happy boofday to me...happy boofday to pina shomel..happy boofday to me...hahahahaha.. It's already 3 DECEMBER today... And I'm absolutely already 20th years old..No more the word "teen" in my age....hahaha...tapi I masih berjiwa Teenagers kay...Kanak2 comey gitu...hahaha..

                                                            
Tp taon neh xlah meriah sgt sbb taon2 lpas byk kena "prank" ngn geng2 senget kolej at hostel ...Bermandikan Teloq Celup Tepung...hahahaha...kalau x basah satu badan x sah...
Tapi smalam hahaha..kna jugak lah "prank" dgan my sister and my niece...abeh bercalit kek coklat at muka..mmg aku x bg can ar..aku calit balik laa..hahahaha..papepon, aku appreciate sgt..senyap2 jer kan...time tu bru lpas dpat pggilan bufday song dr bdk2 senget yg still ada at Mentari Court nuuh..hahaha..thanks weeyy..pastu elok ja my mom call wish befday, depa dua ekoq tu masok blik bwak kek coklat mini siap berlilin haaa....hahahah..so surprise! hahaah

Semalam jenuh berkejaran dari dapoq smpi ke depan..hahah..takut kena celek dgn coklat ..hahah..aku x kira, aku bg jugak...hahaha...

And for all of my frenzo yg wish tu. thanks sgt... siap ada yg upload gmbaq aku tu (dh la gmbaq lama,x shomel gi haa) hahaha...semata2 nk wish befday..I thank for you..

So umoq pon dah meningkat, haha I think I must to change a new one..tp bkn lah smpi lupa diri..just to change to be better than older...hahaha...

Tapi semalam, masa nk tiup lilin, ada satu nama and wajah yg aku sebut and bygkan..bkn aku pksa, tp tu automatik kluaq haa...hmm...sapa dia?? biarlah rahsiaaa....

Ahaaa...lupa plak..aku nk ucapkan jutaan trima kasih jugak tuk mak aku sbb sggup tggu detik 12 mlm td just nk wish aku..hihi...thanks mak..bkn thanks setakat wish tu tapi utk SEGALANYA..Dari permulaan pengorbanan mak tuk adik smpi skrg...adk ucapkan trima kasih sgt2...In shaa Allah adik akan balas blik walaupun x semua...adik akan buat mak bgga dgn adik...dan adik akan jga mak smpi akhir zaman..sayang mak ketat2... huummmm...lau ckp cmni face to face, aku rsa bkn setakat bantal ja basah, tilam n katil pon banjir paa...hahahaha..aku ngn mak aku satu pesen ja..Cepat Touching... xleh jiwang2 ckit, mesti tgkap leleh...hahaha...
Terima kasih sbb mak melengkapi hdup adik and plus dgn extra mak cover arwah ayah pnya kasih syg and tanggungjawab tuk adik and abg2 kakak2 dri dlu.,.

I wish I'll be strong like her! Adik sayang mak ketat2 mak!!!! Moga mak pnjg umoq tuk tros jga adik and bg chance at adik tuk jga mak walopon adik dh kawen...hikhik...tetiba kluaq topik kawen...

Ujung bln 12 neh, aku nk pi kursus kawen dh haa...tp calon xdak pon laa...hahaha..prepare..mana taw, jodoh aku tu dtg mcm dlm drama cinta melayu or dlm novel2 cinta tu kan..sapa taw...Allahuaalaam..

K , ni jer kot for this time.. hope ada la sesapa yg sudi bg adiah at aku taon neh..tringin sgt nak teddy besaq doraemon haa...huuuummm...

K la, aja2 fighting! Wish me luck! Saranghaeyoo...



                                                                                                                         
3 DECEMBER 1994-3 DECEMBER 2014
     (PUTERI DECEMBER)




                      

Puteri 3 December

Even though I tell it not to go,
Even though I tell it to stop

My heart keeps going towards you
It doesn’t wear out, it doesn’t decrease

Why is my love like this
One by one, I count and count the memories

My heart can’t rest for even a moment
It’ll just become baggage that becomes hard to control

Why can’t I even throw them away
Really, my heart must have done something somehow

I must have become a fool that’s blind from love
Just one place, everyday one place

Looking at the sad light that is you
Even the tear glands must be broken

My tears won’t stop
I love only you, only you

Can’t you just tell me?
Even if I hold out my hands,

No matter how much I call out
You’re always far from me

It’ll be a love that becomes painful scars
Why can’t I erase it

Really, my heart must have done something somehow
I must have become a fool that’s blind from love

Just one word, the one phrase that you love
Can’t you just tell me?

I try to comfort myself with the lie
That I’m happy if you just smile

Because the place you’re going towards is not me
The lonely tears flow

Really, my heart must have done something somehow
I must have gone crazy over this hard love

Can’t have you, can’t forget you
Waiting for you day by day

I must have gotten ill from missing you so much
From loving you too much

Just one thing, your heart, that one thing
Can’t you just share it with me
Can’t you love me

-Try to keep my heart strong for the unknown end story-



-Pina94-PutriDecember-

No Idea

Mianhae mianhae hajima
Nega chorahe jijana
palgan yepun ipsulo
oso narul jugigo ga
Nanun gwen chana
Maji maguro narul bara bajwo
Amurochi an nandut usojwo
Niga bogo shi pute
Giokal su ige

Naye morisoge ni ogul guril su ige

Nol bonel su om nun naye yokshimi
Jip cha gi de yot nol ga dot go
Hokshi i ron na te me himduron ni
Amu de dap hom nun no
pa bo cho rom we
Norul ji u jimote
non to na bo ryon nunde
HMM

No ye nun ko ip
Nal manjidon ni son-il
Jageun sontop kajida
Yo jon ni nol nukil su ijiman

kojin bulko chorom
Tade roga boril
Uri sarang modu da
Nomu apujiman ijen nol chu ogira burulge

Saranghae saranghae jiman
Nega bujok hesona bwa
Hokshi uyoni rado
Hansuna manirado nol
Bol su isulka
haruga niga buranhejo

Ne modun ge galsurok himihejo
Sajin soge nonun we
He marke utnunde
Uriyege daga onun ibyorul morun che

Nol bonel su om nun naye yokshimi

Jip cha gi de yot nol ga dot go
Hokshi ireon na te me himduron ni
Amu de dap hom nun no
babo chorom we
Norul ji u jimote
non to na bo ryon nunde

No ye nun ko ip
Nal manjidon ni sonil
Jagun sontop kajida
Yo jon ni nol nukil su ijiman

kojin bulko chorom
Tade roga borin
Uri sarang modu da
Nomu apujiman ijen nol chu ogira burulge

Manul barabodon noye kaman nun
Hangiron sumul damun noye ko

Saranghe saranghe nege soksagidon gu ipsuru na

No ye nun ko ip
Nal manjidon ni sonil
Jagun sontop kajida
Yo jon ni nol nukil su ijiman

kojin bulko chorom
Tade roga borin
Uri sarang modu da
Nomu apujiman ijen nol chu ogira burulge

and maksudnya.........

Don’t be sorry,
that makes me more pitiful.
With your pretty red lips
please hurry, kill me and go.
I’m all right.
Look at me one last time
Smile like nothing’s wrong,
so when I miss you I can remember.
So I can draw your face in my mind.

My selfishness that couldn’t let you go
turned into an obsession that imprisoned you.
Were you hurt because of me?
You sit silently.
Why am I a fool, why can’t I forget you.
You’re already gone.

Your eyes, nose, lips
Your touch that used to touch me,
to the ends of your fingertips.
I can still feel you

but like a burnt out flame,
burnt and destroyed
all of our love
it hurts so much, but now I’ll call you a memory.

Love you, loved you
I must have not been enough
Maybe I could see you just once by coincidence.
Everyday I grow restless,
Everything about you is becoming faint.
You smile back in our pictures,
unknowing of our approaching farewell.

My selfishness that couldn’t let you go
turned into an obsession that imprisoned you
Were you hurt because of me?
You sit silently.
Why am I a fool, why can’t I forget you.
You’re already gone.

Your eyes, nose, lips
Your touch that used to touch me,
to the ends of your fingertips.
I can still feel you

but like a burnt out flame,
burnt and destroyed
all of our love
it hurts so much, but now I’ll call you a memory.

Your black eyes that only saw me
Your nose that held the sweetest breath
Your lips that whispered ‘i love you, i love you’..I….

Your eyes, nose, lips
Your touch that used to touch me,
to the ends of your fingertips.
I can still feel you

but like a burnt out flame,
burnt and destroyed
all of our love.
it hurts so much, but now I’ll call you a memory.

-just for sharing for right now-

LUCKY - just keep waiting for my LUCKY

When I am exausted, Lucky in my life
You come to me as if in a dream
When I sadly fall asleep, Lucky in my dream
You warmly hold me tight

I always smile like this
Even though the world is difficult
I will never show my tears
Even if you do don’t know my feelings
Even if it is from far away, I am grateful
That I can cherish your smile

When I want to cry, Lucky in my love
You look so cool in my imagination
When I feel depressed, Lucky in my world
You always hold me tight, as if in a dream

I always smile like this
Even though the world is difficult
I will never show my tears
Even if you do don’t know my feelings
Even if it is from far away, I am grateful
That I can cherish your smile

Everything is beautiful, I am so happy
I fill this lonley world with my wishes

I always smile like this
Even though the world is difficult
I will never show my tears
Even if you do don’t know my feelings
Even if it is from far away, I am grateful
That I can cherish your smile

Come one step closer to me

Sometimes I just wonder, why you're still in my mind?

-just from me-

Syafi Ichiko @ BisyaSenget

A.S.D. - 30 Jun 2012

Aku lihat dia disana

Aku ingin mendekatinya
Aku cuba menghampirinya
Lalu aku menyapa diaDia pun membuka bicara
Dan aku mulai mengenalnya
Kita mulai bermain mata
Mula timbul rasa bahagia

Bila dia, mendekati diriku
Hatiku rasa sesuatu
Bila dia, senyum pada diriku
Hatiku rasa tak menentu

Kekadang hati ku bertanya
Adakah dia dah berpunya
Kerana diriku berasa
Aku jatuh hati padanya

Aku ingin memilikinya
Aku ingin menjaga dia
Aku ingin mencinta dia
Aku ingin hidup dengannya

Bila dia, mendekati diriku
Hatiku rasa sesuatu
Bila dia, senyum pada diriku
Hatiku rasa tak menentu

Mungkinkah aku, kan berjumpa dengannya
Untuk meluahkan rasa
Mungkinkah aku, kan berdiam diri saja
Menunggu cinta darinya

Ku terima satu nota darimu
Yang tertulis ‘Aku suka kamu’

Bila dia, mendekati diriku
Hatiku rasa sesuatu
Bila dia, senyum pada diriku
Hatiku rasa tak menentu

Akhirnya kini ku kan mampu ceria
Diriku sangat gembira
Akhirnya kini, aku mulai bahagia
Menerima cinta darinya

Lagu first yg aku nak tujukan kat someone yg poyo masa aku di "zaman jahiliah" at City UC.. even x semua lirik at atas ni refer to the situation.

-Malu tak habis lagi-

AAAAAIIGGGOOO!!! MALU DEEEEHHH 

-daaaaaaa-

Dalam Dilema

Hye.. Assalamualaikum... hmm...kali ni mmg blank gila..x taw nk share apa..asal bukak ja blog, no idea nak share.. tapi jari still meqhenyam2 (bergerak2) nak menaip at sini jugak..hahaha..

Diam x diam, dah tggal lagi 3 mggu lebih ja lg for my practical at Niaman Construction neh.. Haaa, btw jum aku nak share something private ckit tntg aku..

Cmni kan aku dah nak habis study bln 12 neh, and just tggu nak convo for next year.. some of my frenz ada tnya, "eh, hang nak smbung study x? at mna?".. and another member from my school, ckp pakat nak further study at oversea for degree lpas ja grade diploma.. kiranya, abeh ja convo tros smbung degree and so on.. tipu kalau aku ckp aku x jelez..tapi aku? Sebenaqnya mmg aku NAK SANGAT further study.. sebab aku rasa mcm ada ja part yg x complete time aku bljaq diploma dlu.. byk bnda yg aku abaikan and yg sepatutnya aku buat time diploma.. so aku ingat nak smbung degree and dalam masa yg sama, aku nak cari identiti aku yg sebenaq.,

Further Study bermaksud aku akan menyusahkan mak and family aku lagi.. aku dah serik susahkan depa time aku mula2 nak further study after SPM dlu.. depa dh byk susah disebabkan aku.. mcm2 masalah, tpi di sebabkan aku nak sangat smbung stdy, depa rela bersusah payah tolong aku itu ini...kalau boleh aku dah x mau susahkan depa lgi,.

Bukan tu ja, kalau aku further study, bermakna aku akan tinggalkan mak aku keseorangan sekali lagi.. dh la dia duk sorg2 at umah tu haa... atok pon dok sorang gak at umah sebelah..cmna haa?\
and lebih menyayat hati aku bila aku smpaikan niat aku nk smbung study, mak aku ckp cmni.. " Dik, hang dah 3 tahun tggal mak sorang2, sbb p bljaq at kl, ni bru ja nk dok balik ngn mak, hang ckp nk smbg lg.. hang nk tggal mak sorg2 lagi ka?".. mmg sentap and sayu gila hati aku bila dgaq.. pda mulanya, aku ingt mak aku nk mngeluh psai duit ka apa ka..rupanya sbb lain.. Alasan and pertanyaan dia tu hmpir2 95% buat aku reject tuk further study..

Dia mmg dh lama sunyi..ayah dh xdak,, akak2 and abg2 dah ada kluarga sendiri..and absolutely ada rumah sendiri..just tggal aku ja tmpat dia berharap..tipulah kalau aku ckp aku xdak impian nak travel jauh2 lgi...kutip pengalaman at tmpat org lagi..sbb aku mmg sukakan cabaran even kdg2 ada yg bt aku "jatuh" smpi x mmpu nk hadap cbaran tu..

tapi, ntah la...brapa byk "tapi" dh aku ckp neh..so, so far, aku decide yg aku akan tgguhkan dlu niat aku nk smbg study.. aku kna pikiaq habis2 dlu.. mybe lpas abeh praktikal, aku akan keja dlu setahun, and then bru aku decide sma ada aku akan further or x.. ikot keadaan masa depan..byk benda lg yg aku kna pikiaq.. First, sbb apa aku ckp aku nk smbung study, adalah sbb aku pikiaq sia2 kalau aku smbung diploma, then aku dh x smbung study lg..rugi kan? hmmm.. xpe, rezeki tu kat mana ja...btoi x?  MAK lg PENTING!


Yg penting nt aku nk cari keja and bantu mak aku dulu kay.. hmmm,.. tu jer kot nk share...byk lg sebenaqnya..tapi dh nk abeh office hour...nak balik..k chow dlu..




Aja Aja Fighting!

JODOH

Gambaq at atas tu just for hilangkan keboringan dan kemikiran keentah hapa2an neh..
Tgah xtaw nak buat apa at office neh, ni la keja aku...on FB, bukak Google, tengok gambaq Lee Min Ho neh..even stengah org kata dia x hnsem, and kadang2 aku pon ada perasan yg my Goo Jun Pyo ni x la hnsem for certain pic, tapi serious, hadap muka dia bleh bikin hati gua, minda gua, rasa cool dgn muka dia sememangnya cool tu...

Aku harap sangat jodoh aku nanti, ada ciri2 mcm Goo Jun Pyo ni jugak...

1) Cool
2) Romantic
3) Funny
4)Ada sikit2 perangai Arrogant dia tu
5)Tinggi, Putih
6)Pandai buat surprise
7) Ada kerjaya sendiri (and komited)
8) Terima aku seadanya
9) Suka travel merata2 tempat (pulau and pantai)
10) the most important thing is Dia kena pandai and tahan bergaduh ngan aku.. sebab aku memang suka cari pasai..hahahahahah..

Tah papa kan.. bajet2 aku ni org "besaq" and jelitawan ja nk request jodoh ikot citarasa,,, aku request jer.. tapi x kisahlah jodoh yg datang utk aku nanti cmna, aku terima ja..dah nama pon jodoh.. mesti tangkap cintan pnya laaa.. just keep waiting..

Kadang2 terpikiaq jugak laa...cmna la kan jodoh aku tu datang dalam hidup aku nanti kan? Siapa gerangan dia? Oghang mana? Anak sapa? Bila masa dia? Kat mana? Perangai dia mcm mana? Style dia mcm mana? Oghang kaya ke x? hihi... Annoying and Arrogant dia tu mcm mana...

And yg paling aku nak taw sangat keadaan and situasi "Jodoh" aku tu muncul dalam hidup aku tu macam mana?  Secara baik ka, secara bergaduh ka?Secara x sengaja ka? Pandangan pertama ka? or secara drama sebabak dalam drama korea, melayu or whateverlaa... hmmmm...

Tapi kan, persoalannya, SEMPAT ka aku nak merasai nikmat DICINTAI? Dan nikmat BERUMAHTANGGA?Nikmat memiliki CAHAYA MATA sendiri? Dunia pon dah di Akhir Zaman..Wallahu Alam...

-Chow-